Things to relate – last goodbye 

One last time before I go I wanna let you know that If you’re reading it is too late, too late to save  love, no religion that could’ve save me so for one last time read my words because you won’t see them again just to tell you that

I’m sorry  that I troubled with you my obsession

I’m sorry that I couldn’t control my tears when I saw you with spending time with your friends and not with me instead

I’m sorry that I waited like a fucking moron when you didn’t replied my messages or calls and acted like a lunatic when I got a single sign of yours 

I’m sorry cause I know it will never be the same still I kept on trying

I’m sorry that I called you when I was dead drunk and you were the only one I remembered 

I’m sorry that I sent you  dozens of texts messages when I know you don’t care anymore 

I’m sorry that I wrote those lots of words for you when I was missing you so much that it nearly killed me 

I’m sorry because I keep running to you because you the only one I can call mine , though I know I’m not the one you care about 

I’m sorry that I hope that someday you’ll realize my pain and come back holding me stopping me from leaving 

I’m sorry that I saw my future with you growing old and then dying with you but it won’t happen again 

I’m sorry because I love you 

But I  won’t repeat  again it won’t happen from now you won’t find me drunk texting you in the middle of a night, you won’t read my words calling you back , 

My mom, she’s not gonna find my eyes red and worry, ain’t gonna pretend to believe that I wasnt crying those sleepless night . Dad’s ain’t gonna worry about why I’ve been writing up those sad stuff and try to smile when everyone’s around

It wont happen anymore no more avoidance of sad songs no more feeling a little heart break when my friends gonna call your name . No more losing my heart on your smile. I’ve been bad I know that and got what I deserve it’s not necessary for me to survive in every tale , sometimes that’s all it takes to be free and free you

Life isn’t a movie you don’t get what you wish for , love doesn’t conqueres all. Fear that is something stops you for getting something new…. fear of opportunities , fear of love , fear of letting someone go never let’s you overcome yourself. Yours

 love or whatever it was it still flashes scares me one that i fear of, it suffocates me you fucking hate me and I can’t change it. Sometimes it’s better to choke yourself then letting someone else do it for you. I waited ….a lot…I was on my knees and pleading , with the wrist bleeding but you don’t even listen so fuck it , it stops me from breathing . 

I hoped for you to get me to make everything right again but it’s too late , I got what was meant but please, I don’t deserve to be forgotten, it is the hope that kept me going no surety but I’m left with none but only one I want that dont forget me completely , think of me when I’m gone but dont if you don’t want to….. just be happy as you are , I know you won’t cry you already did a lot of it and i already did a lot of me . But just promise me that you will think of me every time you hear the word love , everytime you look up.in the sky , everytime you see my name, my word. I gave you all just take my words along the last one I wanna give it to you, they will be there for you with you in the places and situation I could never be , they will always be there for you I won’t . So until I can bear this place I will love you 

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