Things to relate – last goodbye 

One last time before I go I wanna let you know that If you’re reading it is too late, too late to save  love, no religion that could’ve save me so for one last time read my words because you won’t see them again just to tell you that

I’m sorry  that I troubled with you my obsession

I’m sorry that I couldn’t control my tears when I saw you with spending time with your friends and not with me instead

I’m sorry that I waited like a fucking moron when you didn’t replied my messages or calls and acted like a lunatic when I got a single sign of yours 

I’m sorry cause I know it will never be the same still I kept on trying

I’m sorry that I called you when I was dead drunk and you were the only one I remembered 

I’m sorry that I sent you  dozens of texts messages when I know you don’t care anymore 

I’m sorry that I wrote those lots of words for you when I was missing you so much that it nearly killed me 

I’m sorry because I keep running to you because you the only one I can call mine , though I know I’m not the one you care about 

I’m sorry that I hope that someday you’ll realize my pain and come back holding me stopping me from leaving 

I’m sorry that I saw my future with you growing old and then dying with you but it won’t happen again 

I’m sorry because I love you 

But I  won’t repeat  again it won’t happen from now you won’t find me drunk texting you in the middle of a night, you won’t read my words calling you back , 

My mom, she’s not gonna find my eyes red and worry, ain’t gonna pretend to believe that I wasnt crying those sleepless night . Dad’s ain’t gonna worry about why I’ve been writing up those sad stuff and try to smile when everyone’s around

It wont happen anymore no more avoidance of sad songs no more feeling a little heart break when my friends gonna call your name . No more losing my heart on your smile. I’ve been bad I know that and got what I deserve it’s not necessary for me to survive in every tale , sometimes that’s all it takes to be free and free you

Life isn’t a movie you don’t get what you wish for , love doesn’t conqueres all. Fear that is something stops you for getting something new…. fear of opportunities , fear of love , fear of letting someone go never let’s you overcome yourself. Yours

 love or whatever it was it still flashes scares me one that i fear of, it suffocates me you fucking hate me and I can’t change it. Sometimes it’s better to choke yourself then letting someone else do it for you. I waited ….a lot…I was on my knees and pleading , with the wrist bleeding but you don’t even listen so fuck it , it stops me from breathing . 

I hoped for you to get me to make everything right again but it’s too late , I got what was meant but please, I don’t deserve to be forgotten, it is the hope that kept me going no surety but I’m left with none but only one I want that dont forget me completely , think of me when I’m gone but dont if you don’t want to….. just be happy as you are , I know you won’t cry you already did a lot of it and i already did a lot of me . But just promise me that you will think of me every time you hear the word love , everytime you look up.in the sky , everytime you see my name, my word. I gave you all just take my words along the last one I wanna give it to you, they will be there for you with you in the places and situation I could never be , they will always be there for you I won’t . So until I can bear this place I will love you 

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Soul sister

Hey soul sister, do you take my words, I will evermore be there for you better or worse

hey soul sister it’s just the start just wait for verse, whatever happens, im gonna put you first

and if you want me, I’m gonna write those songs for you

doesn’t matters if it takes so long for you

I will be waiting there with the love so strong for you

I’m gonna make it right whatever is wrong with you

But if you ever ask me please how I’ll be doing this. Hey, I’m gonna say

like I told you I will hold you

through the darkness and light so bright that you can’t even see

through the good and the bad and the ugly

 

Hey soul sister, don’t you worry about fights , to guide you home I will be your light

, hey soul sister, dont be afraid of the heights , take my hand  I will make it all right

and if you want me I’m gonna kiss away your pain for you

be your sunshine in the rain for you

doing it to-and-fro all again for you

all my life gonna do same for you

But if you ever ask me please how I’ll be doing this. Hey, i’m gonna say

like i told you from the start, I’ll never set you apart

and be the one, whatever you want me to be

through the good and the bad and the ugly

 

Hey soul sister, I will travel a thousand mile, do everything just to see you smile

hey soul sister, even if you call me a rile, I’ll catch your sadness within

and if you want me I’m gonna

walk through the fire for you

do everything to achieve every desire for you

If you feel low gonna take the world higher for you

make pure every aspire for you

But if you ever ask me, please how I’ll be doing this. Hey, i’m gonna say

till the horizon i will be your poison

till the time and after you and me

through the good and the bad and the ugly 

Things to relate – just friends

Maybe, it’s a crazy word beside it gives you hope it tears down your feel to fall for someone to be happy for small little moments it gives you a reason to love but it takes away your reason to find love.

Maybe you love me maybe you just fake, maybe be we are made for each other, maybe we are solicited to do this forever. One day you use to care one day you don’t, one day I feel like you feel for me too, one day it’s just some worthless little flirting. We live in the world of uncertainties maybe it’s arduous to fall in love maybe it’s the slightest thing but it sucks when you love someone who doesn’t love you back. We are friends, maybe the best ones, but friends. Maybe it’s crazy how I person I didn’t know some times back suddenly tops my chat lists every time, maybe that never happens

Maybe you don’t feel to me like the way I do, Maybe you feel the same but for someone else.Maybe if I wait, or I say you, you’ll prefer me , but again I want to become a priority in your life, not a choice. Maybe should say it to you so it does not get too late, but maybe it’s too early, but what happens if the right time never comes. Maybe this gonna take forever. Those words I never wrote for you, those feel I never shared are broken down on me scrawled all over my heart my poetry …poetry I never wrote sometimes it’s too late. Stuck in my own chaos I always saw a light of hope when I close my eyes, I see you. Do you know how it feels to have a person who can wait for you like forever, who’s gonna be there for you no matter what, who can go through anything just to see a little chance to be with you? even if you do, do you see me there, but it’s fine my feel for you is not a question I don’t look for an answer just a hope that someday you’ll know, someday you’ll see, what you really mean to me.

It’s a messed up life we live in those crazy moments where you don’t know what’s life gonna get you. Maybe you’ll never feel for me, maybe at a certain point you’ll do maybe unknowingly, maybe together, maybe at a sided, maybe forever, maybe temporary, maybe fake,maybe true….maybe too late. Maybe, it’s not a word as crazy as it seems it gives you the possibility, and there’s possibility that keeps us going not the guarantee

Things to relate- Friends

It’s not been a long time that I got in my heart
I remember the first time I saw you, you were lost in thoughts and I was lost in you…. You didn’t know me neither did I, you showed me who am I
I remember your face down on the floor, closing your eyes and I can’t look anymore. I don’t know how a glance of you got you in my veins through my eyes.
I remember the fear of sending you the request in the hope get me, make a place in your life if you let me. That fear, first text and smiling like a lunatic on the replies were so true to take my words , feel how I feel for you…..
I never waited for anything as much as I wait for the new picture of yours and reading and getting jealous of comments of other guys, I was never the same.
I hope you get the words I say, we talk on the phone night till the day you take my breathe away

I‘ve been thinking bout you lately I’ve been a Lil bit psycho Your words they come and get me thinking wherever I go Making cute little thoughts and dreaming of a better tomorrow Take my words I will kiss your stitch and take away your sorrows And every night when you close your eyes, i will make it sure you realise  You are one running back to those few year I never been perfect like I said you, how could I’ve ever been perfect just the reason I never had you Aint nothing got stuck in my head but you keep me smear coz I let you But girl I knew you like a love book a sweet description like I read you

In a nutshell , oh well i can’t say all I want you to stay, whatever I can’t say I write it in my rhyme, but not every time , sometimes it’s so much left to say, if every simple word I wrote for you takes your heart away, I write a song, it won’t take long, don’t ask why just try, to find your name , it’s always the one and same, it’s you in every way,
But its fine take a sign, I don’t wanna stay  this and won’t make you mine,
So pretend we are a couple, together in our time, taking all the trouble, is subtle.
But I know someday, I’ll find a way to say so we can be forever like two birds that flock together till the end
Till then I’ll chain myself to a friend

Things to relate- crush

love is easy, falling in love is easier, crush is the easiest. Having a crush takes you to back in the childhood where you feel about even small stuff.

It’s absurd how a single person changes your life in a flash and gives you the reason to wake up every day. No commitments no names for the feel, no promises but you still feel like giving up the world for them, Getting up in the morning checking lots of different applications for the same profile takes you out the misery of the chaos and the loneliness.
Sitting in a coffee shop She was losing her mind over her loneliness . Asking the reason of wandering alone on empty streets . She asked herself the time she’ll finally be free in somebody’s arms swiftly she heard him sigh . Eyeing his face .they were looking at each other’s eyes , that ten second Gawk gave them – a thinking for night long and a poison for life long. those two cups of coffee, that two table, those two hearts, and one feel gave them dreams for nights and hope for days.

A smile of her gave him the essence of his days checking out her photographs, her eyes that shined bright in the light got his heart pounded little faster than it used to be. Reading out her comments and synergy from the guys made him feel little skeptical the feel that he never had.

She started accepting that the love and fate walked in from the same door, those long nights and longer chats attached the pieces of her shattered heart in past that she don’t even retrieve. It wasn’t like, that he was most important person in the world its just she didn’t care if he wasn’t, he became important to her in her own tiny world

The fact is it’s never easy, everything’s hard ,moving on is hard, falling is harder getting damaged is more, everybody’s gonna hurt you if you fall you just have to find out who’s gonna pick you when you fall and who’ll never let you down

those two cups of coffee, that two table, those two hearts, and one feel gave them dreams for nights and hope for days.

love is easy, falling in love is easier, crush is the easiest

Weed for the dreams

taking these two pills, my pupils – expanded. my true feels are grounded

new feels are founded . some few feels are wounded

so view feels , surrounded . some too feels are, bounded

so roll it , lick it, hold it, make a fold, dude . Are you stoned don’t you recall what I told, dude

don’t let it spread just hold, dude. Do it quick don’t growl dude , you old dude

forget, I’m overlooking the old one gonna take a new pain, something to bring me back to sane, whatever you heard can be true man, I feel like I’m drenched its COCAIN, not rain, I’m insane

So smack it, don’t heck, take it ,don’t fake it. It’s gonna be crazier streams

Take a weed for the dreams

 

I was never a type of kid who kept running away  to get the light, although messed up eternally chased up in the fight,

can’t choose between when I’m fucked up I know I’m broken up and what’s its height. just used to wake up in the faith that it will go away and it will be all right

so take my shoe go take a walk you won’t get it what hurts so bad, if you can see, it’s a riot inside from my words and what I said , it’s a fire burning I keep on turning from what I have and what I had, even if I was sitting and seeing myself bleed still I won’t be sad

so take a hand lets pretend life isn’t full of fear, we ain’t tied up in emotions at the end of a tear, whatever you’ve done you’ll get all here, it takes the whole life to die nothing is near

let’s pretend whatever they say is true, you control yourself, your owner is you, you get whatever you love it’s your virtue, it’s funny, let the time come when you have no money, you are not only the new .

so lastly I was trapped in a dome, I was leaving my home, told my dad that I’m grown, I will live all alone, ill go smoke some weed and get stoned, don’t you worry mom I’ll give you a phone, my girl I won’t let you mourn

but the web of lies I told won’t let me be, it won’t let me see, so clearly, smacking one shot isn’t my only USP. Some crazier streams

A weed for the dreams

 

If you guess you know my story, that ruin wild and hoary, no wait I wanna seek my glory, it won’t make me sorry , don’t you worry

they say everyone’s beautiful, but fuck off ‘truth’, you ain’t. what you want from me, to be a saint? no, I’m a sinner maybe for a past I won’t lose I’m a winner, in the course, sand is thinner, but wait to serve me revenge in the dinner.

so put a needle above my elbow it’s my dosage, it’s a gross age, no ways is high on the life, its poison, from the sky to the horizon, causes wrath, more than a meth, but the aftermath, give me a reason, so I can face it alone, all my name on the tears, when  I’m gone

it’s gonna take some time to realign, one day it’s gonna be fine, away from these crazy streams

a weed for the dreams

its crazy

its crazy how a person comes to your life and makes you discern that  how hollow can be your life be without a single person its crazy how you used to wish about never getting apart and as the life happens you hope that you could’ve said how you feel, at least once

its crazy, love is crazier, the breakup is even crazier than it seems worst when your relation had no name

one day she used to care, one day she professed she was afraid and he was constantly searching for the cause. it’s crazy that the one person he used to talk night till the morning  one day suddenly  moves on and only time crossed his mind was before he used to sleep those cuddles, those laughs those words that used to bring the best out of him, those cute little fights that made her quiver because of his care, one day tacked out to be the thing that made her cold.

she never recaptured believing just to move away, he was stopping her from leaving she didn’t even oh heck she wasn’t going to listen anyway. He begged holding her name because holding her hand never seemed right “last time, this won’t happen next time”  he cried, “there will be no next time,I regret, goodbye” that’s all she said as he gawked his life moving away. All her perfect imperfections flickered before him as he got his hands leeching blood while picking up broken pieces of his heart. His voice she never heard, his tears she never saw, her reasons, her silence made him sit hopelessly in the corner with the bleeding tears from his eyes. She was best for him, he always tried to suit her; he taught her to feel special ,she taught him that some people walk into your life to make you realize that your life won’t be the same once they walk away . Their relation never had a name but he always tried to give it a name.

It is fine all it takes open veins, your person is your word it’s just every poem doesn’t have to rhyme. it’s not necessary for a worthy to survive in every story in this he has to die in fire and flash of mindful ways, get away with the drug that her recollections gave him, in the hope that one day she will come again hoping and searching for him to place where it was all started.

its crazy, love is crazier, the breakup is even crazier than it seems worst when your relation had no name