Things to relate – last goodbye 

One last time before I go I wanna let you know that If you’re reading it is too late, too late to save  love, no religion that could’ve save me so for one last time read my words because you won’t see them again just to tell you that

I’m sorry  that I troubled with you my obsession

I’m sorry that I couldn’t control my tears when I saw you with spending time with your friends and not with me instead

I’m sorry that I waited like a fucking moron when you didn’t replied my messages or calls and acted like a lunatic when I got a single sign of yours 

I’m sorry cause I know it will never be the same still I kept on trying

I’m sorry that I called you when I was dead drunk and you were the only one I remembered 

I’m sorry that I sent you  dozens of texts messages when I know you don’t care anymore 

I’m sorry that I wrote those lots of words for you when I was missing you so much that it nearly killed me 

I’m sorry because I keep running to you because you the only one I can call mine , though I know I’m not the one you care about 

I’m sorry that I hope that someday you’ll realize my pain and come back holding me stopping me from leaving 

I’m sorry that I saw my future with you growing old and then dying with you but it won’t happen again 

I’m sorry because I love you 

But I  won’t repeat  again it won’t happen from now you won’t find me drunk texting you in the middle of a night, you won’t read my words calling you back , 

My mom, she’s not gonna find my eyes red and worry, ain’t gonna pretend to believe that I wasnt crying those sleepless night . Dad’s ain’t gonna worry about why I’ve been writing up those sad stuff and try to smile when everyone’s around

It wont happen anymore no more avoidance of sad songs no more feeling a little heart break when my friends gonna call your name . No more losing my heart on your smile. I’ve been bad I know that and got what I deserve it’s not necessary for me to survive in every tale , sometimes that’s all it takes to be free and free you

Life isn’t a movie you don’t get what you wish for , love doesn’t conqueres all. Fear that is something stops you for getting something new…. fear of opportunities , fear of love , fear of letting someone go never let’s you overcome yourself. Yours

 love or whatever it was it still flashes scares me one that i fear of, it suffocates me you fucking hate me and I can’t change it. Sometimes it’s better to choke yourself then letting someone else do it for you. I waited ….a lot…I was on my knees and pleading , with the wrist bleeding but you don’t even listen so fuck it , it stops me from breathing . 

I hoped for you to get me to make everything right again but it’s too late , I got what was meant but please, I don’t deserve to be forgotten, it is the hope that kept me going no surety but I’m left with none but only one I want that dont forget me completely , think of me when I’m gone but dont if you don’t want to….. just be happy as you are , I know you won’t cry you already did a lot of it and i already did a lot of me . But just promise me that you will think of me every time you hear the word love , everytime you look up.in the sky , everytime you see my name, my word. I gave you all just take my words along the last one I wanna give it to you, they will be there for you with you in the places and situation I could never be , they will always be there for you I won’t . So until I can bear this place I will love you 

Do you recall

Remember long ago we used to walk for the long time
Got stuck on each other, we used to talk for the long time
And when you called my name you used to make my beat up
Poison your fingertips you used to raise my heat up  

And the night was long our chats were longer
Every time I talked of you said I belong her 
And all I know I just used to songer
I thought time is tough our love is stronger   

But now let’s call it love it was worth a fall
I had trouble sleeping and you don’t notice at all
Even if I bleed down or even crawl
Do you recall?   

You believe in love and fate it walks out from the same door
Need something to believe in because I don’t believe in you anymore 
But say was it all for all the cut and the stitches
Give me back my love all the memories and the kisses  

Now the time is hard my pain is harder
When I lost you I lost my ardour 
I was you shelter your home your garder
But now all I can think is I never got her

   But now let’s call it love it was worth a fall
I had trouble sleeping and you don’t notice at all
Even if I bleed down or even crawl 
Do you recall?  

broken smiled girl

She’s a girl who drove long eon with her feel-wounded heart

Everything she ever thought was right started to tear her apart

She’s a girl use to cry on Monday morning

Even spend her nights waiting for something

She’s a girl who needed to be hold needed to cry

She’s a girl staring at a picture till her tears go dry

Trying to live her way on I wanted her to burl

She got none else to say on she’s a broken smiled girl

She’s a girl who look in the mirror asks herself

Where’s your god when she’s screaming for help

She is a girl with million happy memories behind

But now burnt in flame of past ashes she can find

She’s a girl finding meaning of her existence

She’s a girl trying hoping looking for her senses

Got dazed by thoughts her mind goes whirl

Immense of fights she fought she’s a broken smiled girl

she’s a girl blubs on her pillow in the dark

she’s a girl with fragile heart with a scar on the mark

she’s a girl believed that some thing will last forever

like love written on the stars or firmly on the feather

she’s a girl lying top of her car looking to the moon

she’s stifling like on a height her she goes swirl

sitting in the corner hating the light she’s a broken smiled girl

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Its too late

If you are reading this it’s too late 
Too late to hold me back 
If you are reading this its too late
Too late to apologize for your mistake 
I dont have a reason to hold on and you dont have the time 
I dont have rite to be cold on and you wont make it fine
Now no more being obsess and crying over your new crush 
Now no more being numb on your not replying and feeling the dush
No more drunk texts on your phone and your scoldings next morning
No more acting like the lovers, finding out it leads to nothing and mourning
Of course i will still love you through out the time but showing no more
Of course i will still hope for you to come back but waiting no more
Of course my beats will raise up when i ll here your name but crying no more
Of course i will feel inside my heart to get back those time your smile but trying no more
Losing you will hurt let you go will hurt even more ,more than anything happened in my life
Somewhere i belong i will go little far , far from your sweet little teasing ,your cute pet names , adorable little strifes 
But,
If you are reading it its too late
Too late to get love jake 
If you are reading it its loo late 
To try and apologise for your mistake
Just some hope and trying begging you on my knees m crying 
So give my high pumping heart beats my slow low warm breathe
Take your smile your memories take your time your space your reveries

Utkarsh sharma

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The letter

When was the last time you thought of me or you erased me from your memory , you still same for me my, lil girl who sent me kisses to start my day texted me every day and night… took my breathe away . still your old text flash me inside my mind force me to read and remember it all again ,my those last message still shine up screaming out …….your non replaying strike over my heart, which still hopes for your reply but deny to hate you …..still loves you for teaching me that is so hard not to feel rejected .
you thought me the meaning of being lonely and thought me that some people come you your life just to make you believe that your life will never be the same without them. Do you ever been so sad that you cant cry anymore that you actually silent ,you not yelling anymore ? I guess not because if you ever felt i would have not been in this misery .you were essential to me the air i breathe and i believed that without you i have no reason to be. 
you used to share your every life event with me what gone so bad that you started hiding the things that were my rite to know, but atleast let me know that the girl i could have died for… disconnected the phone lines for no fucking reason ,so that i can hack my life up for a accurate reason .
these wall shouts at me feels like closing in …..the roof it feel like caving in ,push me under my bearing capacity tells me that you no longer the same person. My phone i think it doesn’t pops up your text that’s why i keep on calling your number but it just keeps on dialing , fix it ……. Fix it for sure it got some problem because you ignoring me is the same as day i dont think about you…. Its impossible .
my friends talk about us but all it dose is breaks me up ,i know you not there for me but my heart he doesn’t believes the fact . i knew the time will come when i have to let you off my arms but it will come so soon and that too in this manner i dint knew. 
You still the most special girl to me more than anything , you were my strength to build me up , a hand to hold me ,the girl i shaded my tears for ……… I’m not writing it to let you know or let you read it i know you dont believe me but that’s the only feel i got , the words they dont finish up no more ,the more they come out as my tears roll down my face . if you ever come back no yelling no scolds no crying over you no more fights i will learn from my mistakes i promise .
Now m tired of chasing i wanna be chased , m tired of crying i want someone to make me smile , m tired of writing pages full of emotional shit i wanna get a single word text message , m tired of trying to let you go i want someone to hold me , m tired of feeling worthless i want someone to make me feel special , m tired of spending crazy nights i wanna get a sweet good night text , m tired of missing things i want you to miss me , m tired of feeling ignored i wanna be adored , m tired of shedding tears i wanna laugh with you , I’m tired of loving i wanna get loved ,

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