Are you lost?

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Are you lost? you ramble around, away from the world, where have you been? you found yourself somewhere before? you travel the world looking for the piece of your soul, something to complete you, going to the places no one’s ever been, searching for the spot you never been, you lose yourself and find what you were meant to be. So, are you lost? if you are lost, where did you find yourself before?
You look up to the sky showering the love that you never got, you look at the roads giving you the money you never had, those stars to guide you home, some things you never get. You meet new entity, the new land that makes you think that you belong there, you meet new essence of the petrichor, you meet yourself, you find the part of you that you never knew was missing. So, are you lost? or you are just too much into the fake happiness that you created, living in the world that they created and searching for the place that doesn’t even exists.
Not all who wander are lost, not all who are lost wander, the reason why some of them never find their real self. You get so used to your mask that you forget what skin is beneath it, what you are beneath that skin and deeper. The fact is we are too afraid to take off our masks in front of the people we don’t know to get the thing we never wanted in the first place. So, if you take off the mask at some place, some point where only you know, no one cares who you really are, are you lost?
There comes a time when you need to get away with yourself and look up to your dreams that you always saw, choices that you always wanted to make, steps that you wanted to take but you are too afraid, too afraid to get lost, too afraid that you can’t even see what you really are and what you have become, too afraid to look back to yourself and feel sorry for the promises that you’ve broken, just because you were too afraid. You want to go to the places without foundations, no strings, no boundaries but you can’t because you are afraid to get lost, but have you found yourself in the first place?
The World is big, your dreams are bigger and your desire is the biggest, but you always keep your fear in front of all. What you gonna do when this all ends up, Going back again making all those fake promises while you were still waiting for that ‘someday’? someday that never comes and keeps you in the hallucinations that you will get what you want, you will receive what you deserve just wait for it, good things come to people who wait and that wait takes forever to let you meet yourself. So get lost without even knowing your destination, find yourself in the middle of the nowhere and in the middle of the nowhere you’ll find yourself and ask, are you really lost?

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Things to relate- Friends

It’s not been a long time that I got in my heart
I remember the first time I saw you, you were lost in thoughts and I was lost in you…. You didn’t know me neither did I, you showed me who am I
I remember your face down on the floor, closing your eyes and I can’t look anymore. I don’t know how a glance of you got you in my veins through my eyes.
I remember the fear of sending you the request in the hope get me, make a place in your life if you let me. That fear, first text and smiling like a lunatic on the replies were so true to take my words , feel how I feel for you…..
I never waited for anything as much as I wait for the new picture of yours and reading and getting jealous of comments of other guys, I was never the same.
I hope you get the words I say, we talk on the phone night till the day you take my breathe away

I‘ve been thinking bout you lately I’ve been a Lil bit psycho Your words they come and get me thinking wherever I go Making cute little thoughts and dreaming of a better tomorrow Take my words I will kiss your stitch and take away your sorrows And every night when you close your eyes, i will make it sure you realise  You are one running back to those few year I never been perfect like I said you, how could I’ve ever been perfect just the reason I never had you Aint nothing got stuck in my head but you keep me smear coz I let you But girl I knew you like a love book a sweet description like I read you

In a nutshell , oh well i can’t say all I want you to stay, whatever I can’t say I write it in my rhyme, but not every time , sometimes it’s so much left to say, if every simple word I wrote for you takes your heart away, I write a song, it won’t take long, don’t ask why just try, to find your name , it’s always the one and same, it’s you in every way,
But its fine take a sign, I don’t wanna stay  this and won’t make you mine,
So pretend we are a couple, together in our time, taking all the trouble, is subtle.
But I know someday, I’ll find a way to say so we can be forever like two birds that flock together till the end
Till then I’ll chain myself to a friend

Things to relate- crush

love is easy, falling in love is easier, crush is the easiest. Having a crush takes you to back in the childhood where you feel about even small stuff.

It’s absurd how a single person changes your life in a flash and gives you the reason to wake up every day. No commitments no names for the feel, no promises but you still feel like giving up the world for them, Getting up in the morning checking lots of different applications for the same profile takes you out the misery of the chaos and the loneliness.
Sitting in a coffee shop She was losing her mind over her loneliness . Asking the reason of wandering alone on empty streets . She asked herself the time she’ll finally be free in somebody’s arms swiftly she heard him sigh . Eyeing his face .they were looking at each other’s eyes , that ten second Gawk gave them – a thinking for night long and a poison for life long. those two cups of coffee, that two table, those two hearts, and one feel gave them dreams for nights and hope for days.

A smile of her gave him the essence of his days checking out her photographs, her eyes that shined bright in the light got his heart pounded little faster than it used to be. Reading out her comments and synergy from the guys made him feel little skeptical the feel that he never had.

She started accepting that the love and fate walked in from the same door, those long nights and longer chats attached the pieces of her shattered heart in past that she don’t even retrieve. It wasn’t like, that he was most important person in the world its just she didn’t care if he wasn’t, he became important to her in her own tiny world

The fact is it’s never easy, everything’s hard ,moving on is hard, falling is harder getting damaged is more, everybody’s gonna hurt you if you fall you just have to find out who’s gonna pick you when you fall and who’ll never let you down

those two cups of coffee, that two table, those two hearts, and one feel gave them dreams for nights and hope for days.

love is easy, falling in love is easier, crush is the easiest

One more joint

One more joint , so i can get up to the point
And one more joint , So i carry on my roin
One more joint , and get ill be back to my mind
And one more joint , so i can be a little kind

One more joint
so i cant hit a bong And feel my life is song
Everyone can come along and feel so right doing wrong
One more joint
So i can smoke tow more , before some cops hit the door
And so i can adore are you feeling somewhat sore
Come give it up some blow and if you feeling low
Smoke Three in a row , take one for the money and two for the show
The garden full of green , its is crazy as it seems but have you ever been
In the box thats so clean
Come roll your joint with a bend get fucked up and pass to friend
Ask him to smoke till the end , inhale dont pretend , Smoke that it grand
Smoke the kush touch the airplane , take a trip on a slow lane , dreched in a weed rain
Keep your mind refrain , its  insane , blow your pain , out from the window pane
One more joint , so i can get up to the point
And one more joint , So i carry on my roin

One more joint
Ok i got some stuff Surprise motherfucker , you can buy if you want supplies motherfucker
Or get down with your stuff some fries motherfucker , with the bong and song allrise motherfucker
One more joint
Buy your drinks whatever you need , your own plant your own seed , follow the smoke trail whereever it leads , or the roches where ever the meet , Smile all along smoke your weed ,and inside hope a motherfucker bleed
So smoking smoking up to the star , till we forget what we are , up above the world so high , Like the stars in the sky , take my rhyme i dont lie , Unicorns passing by , like imma gonna die , dont ask me why
One more joint , so i can get up to the point
And one more joint , So i carry on my roin

broken smiled girl

She’s a girl who drove long eon with her feel-wounded heart

Everything she ever thought was right started to tear her apart

She’s a girl use to cry on Monday morning

Even spend her nights waiting for something

She’s a girl who needed to be hold needed to cry

She’s a girl staring at a picture till her tears go dry

Trying to live her way on I wanted her to burl

She got none else to say on she’s a broken smiled girl

She’s a girl who look in the mirror asks herself

Where’s your god when she’s screaming for help

She is a girl with million happy memories behind

But now burnt in flame of past ashes she can find

She’s a girl finding meaning of her existence

She’s a girl trying hoping looking for her senses

Got dazed by thoughts her mind goes whirl

Immense of fights she fought she’s a broken smiled girl

she’s a girl blubs on her pillow in the dark

she’s a girl with fragile heart with a scar on the mark

she’s a girl believed that some thing will last forever

like love written on the stars or firmly on the feather

she’s a girl lying top of her car looking to the moon

she’s stifling like on a height her she goes swirl

sitting in the corner hating the light she’s a broken smiled girl

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Hold you like a fay

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M not apart , from your heart

Yeah told ya from the start

M not away,  from your way

We together that time isn’t far

 

Im out,  from the doubt

You the one m thinking about

All I wanna see,  is you n me

Just lost in the the love you brought

 

Now I need no complication

Can see those variations

All I wanna say

 is I ll hold you like a fay

Hold you like a fay

 

All I wanna do,  all I want is you

I don’t care where we go

Forget  that fear, I m n always be hear

I know you too feel so

 

I got the sign, is to make u mine

Yeah u make me feel so fine

Just neva leave me, don’t tryna decive me

You are my sunshine

 

Your love running through my vain

You are nayr to my rain

All I wanna say

Is I ll hold you like a fay

I ll hold you like a fay 

 

do you think, i cant catch a thing

seeing u i cant take a blink

do you know, so high you make me go

you know my heart beats with yours it got a link

 

im out of mind, you u the one.. i got the sign 

and it keeps on keeps on trying 

cant spend a day, wanchya to stay

thinkin leting u go makes me lil crying 

 

now i dont know cant thing what i have to do 

crazy for you coz i neva met a girl like you 

all i wanna say

Is I ll hold you like a fay

I ll hold you like a fay     

Intoxicated

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Tell me the face of living with each other 
When we cant be together 
Try to come close to you to catch you like a feather 
Wind keep blowing away forever 

keep my hand on freezing snow 
See me hold it watch it go 
Catch my name it every blow 
I ll be der for sure 

Call me your something give a name 
I dont want be treated the same 
Lemme me cross this friendly game 
Hand a sort of cure 

Without everything you do i cant get the feeling that was new and i let it 
You make me intoxicated 

Like to edge of stream 
In front but not together as it seems 
Like you callin for your love yo scream 
I dont wanna stand there like that 

like m half a heart i beg for more 
I can get it but not so sure 
I stuck my eyes to the door 
And the world watch me wait 

I look at the blue sky keep on staring dunno why and it let me waited 
You make me intoxicated 

And i ll be yours u ll be mine 
We dont wanna be like else we will be fine 
M lil lost without you take a sign 
And try it down the way 

Call me rile a troublemaker 
I ll you mine my breathe taker 
U really my heart beat maker 
I dunno how to say 

i search out and try everyday you really look like a fay and you don’t come i hate it 
You make me intoxicated