darkness and the lights and the stars

when you’re stuck in the ocean and pop up the question
who’s gonna take you out of the misery
when you just wanna see on, I promise I’ll be one
and be everything you want me to be
take it out what you thinking and it keeps you blinking
and lost in your own mystery
when you feel you are sinking and you mess up the linking
I’ll make you believe in chivalry
and I’m gonna be your heal and be your zeal
bring your emotion if you just can’t feel
like I told you I will hold you, and take you away from where you are
through the darkness and the lights and the stars

when you afraid of the heights and you can’t take the flight
you know I’ll take you higher
when you search for the light, I will make it all right
I promise I will fill desire
when your nights full of pain, your days of the same
and you are trapped inside some wires
when you burning in the pain when you wait for the rain
I will walk you through flames and fire
see you can count on me, I’ll make you go free
just tell me the lock I will bring you the key
like I told you I will hold you, in the peace and
also when your mind is in a war
through the darkness and the lights and the stars

when it’s not as per the fate and you lost all you had
I will do everything that it takes
sorry if don’t be that great, not as per I said
I will learn from my mistakes
if I screwed up the feel and broke up the keel
I will search again I will go back
ok here’s the deal, I promise I’ll be real
take my words I will never fake
so take your time, find your name in my rhyme
I will be there for you like always I’m
like I told you I will hold you, to fill your dream
and even when they are too bizarre
through the darkness and the lights and the stars

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Are you lost?

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Are you lost? you ramble around, away from the world, where have you been? you found yourself somewhere before? you travel the world looking for the piece of your soul, something to complete you, going to the places no one’s ever been, searching for the spot you never been, you lose yourself and find what you were meant to be. So, are you lost? if you are lost, where did you find yourself before?
You look up to the sky showering the love that you never got, you look at the roads giving you the money you never had, those stars to guide you home, some things you never get. You meet new entity, the new land that makes you think that you belong there, you meet new essence of the petrichor, you meet yourself, you find the part of you that you never knew was missing. So, are you lost? or you are just too much into the fake happiness that you created, living in the world that they created and searching for the place that doesn’t even exists.
Not all who wander are lost, not all who are lost wander, the reason why some of them never find their real self. You get so used to your mask that you forget what skin is beneath it, what you are beneath that skin and deeper. The fact is we are too afraid to take off our masks in front of the people we don’t know to get the thing we never wanted in the first place. So, if you take off the mask at some place, some point where only you know, no one cares who you really are, are you lost?
There comes a time when you need to get away with yourself and look up to your dreams that you always saw, choices that you always wanted to make, steps that you wanted to take but you are too afraid, too afraid to get lost, too afraid that you can’t even see what you really are and what you have become, too afraid to look back to yourself and feel sorry for the promises that you’ve broken, just because you were too afraid. You want to go to the places without foundations, no strings, no boundaries but you can’t because you are afraid to get lost, but have you found yourself in the first place?
The World is big, your dreams are bigger and your desire is the biggest, but you always keep your fear in front of all. What you gonna do when this all ends up, Going back again making all those fake promises while you were still waiting for that ‘someday’? someday that never comes and keeps you in the hallucinations that you will get what you want, you will receive what you deserve just wait for it, good things come to people who wait and that wait takes forever to let you meet yourself. So get lost without even knowing your destination, find yourself in the middle of the nowhere and in the middle of the nowhere you’ll find yourself and ask, are you really lost?

Things to relate – just friends

Maybe, it’s a crazy word beside it gives you hope it tears down your feel to fall for someone to be happy for small little moments it gives you a reason to love but it takes away your reason to find love.

Maybe you love me maybe you just fake, maybe be we are made for each other, maybe we are solicited to do this forever. One day you use to care one day you don’t, one day I feel like you feel for me too, one day it’s just some worthless little flirting. We live in the world of uncertainties maybe it’s arduous to fall in love maybe it’s the slightest thing but it sucks when you love someone who doesn’t love you back. We are friends, maybe the best ones, but friends. Maybe it’s crazy how I person I didn’t know some times back suddenly tops my chat lists every time, maybe that never happens

Maybe you don’t feel to me like the way I do, Maybe you feel the same but for someone else.Maybe if I wait, or I say you, you’ll prefer me , but again I want to become a priority in your life, not a choice. Maybe should say it to you so it does not get too late, but maybe it’s too early, but what happens if the right time never comes. Maybe this gonna take forever. Those words I never wrote for you, those feel I never shared are broken down on me scrawled all over my heart my poetry …poetry I never wrote sometimes it’s too late. Stuck in my own chaos I always saw a light of hope when I close my eyes, I see you. Do you know how it feels to have a person who can wait for you like forever, who’s gonna be there for you no matter what, who can go through anything just to see a little chance to be with you? even if you do, do you see me there, but it’s fine my feel for you is not a question I don’t look for an answer just a hope that someday you’ll know, someday you’ll see, what you really mean to me.

It’s a messed up life we live in those crazy moments where you don’t know what’s life gonna get you. Maybe you’ll never feel for me, maybe at a certain point you’ll do maybe unknowingly, maybe together, maybe at a sided, maybe forever, maybe temporary, maybe fake,maybe true….maybe too late. Maybe, it’s not a word as crazy as it seems it gives you the possibility, and there’s possibility that keeps us going not the guarantee

Things to relate- Friends

It’s not been a long time that I got in my heart
I remember the first time I saw you, you were lost in thoughts and I was lost in you…. You didn’t know me neither did I, you showed me who am I
I remember your face down on the floor, closing your eyes and I can’t look anymore. I don’t know how a glance of you got you in my veins through my eyes.
I remember the fear of sending you the request in the hope get me, make a place in your life if you let me. That fear, first text and smiling like a lunatic on the replies were so true to take my words , feel how I feel for you…..
I never waited for anything as much as I wait for the new picture of yours and reading and getting jealous of comments of other guys, I was never the same.
I hope you get the words I say, we talk on the phone night till the day you take my breathe away

I‘ve been thinking bout you lately I’ve been a Lil bit psycho Your words they come and get me thinking wherever I go Making cute little thoughts and dreaming of a better tomorrow Take my words I will kiss your stitch and take away your sorrows And every night when you close your eyes, i will make it sure you realise  You are one running back to those few year I never been perfect like I said you, how could I’ve ever been perfect just the reason I never had you Aint nothing got stuck in my head but you keep me smear coz I let you But girl I knew you like a love book a sweet description like I read you

In a nutshell , oh well i can’t say all I want you to stay, whatever I can’t say I write it in my rhyme, but not every time , sometimes it’s so much left to say, if every simple word I wrote for you takes your heart away, I write a song, it won’t take long, don’t ask why just try, to find your name , it’s always the one and same, it’s you in every way,
But its fine take a sign, I don’t wanna stay  this and won’t make you mine,
So pretend we are a couple, together in our time, taking all the trouble, is subtle.
But I know someday, I’ll find a way to say so we can be forever like two birds that flock together till the end
Till then I’ll chain myself to a friend

Things to relate- crush

love is easy, falling in love is easier, crush is the easiest. Having a crush takes you to back in the childhood where you feel about even small stuff.

It’s absurd how a single person changes your life in a flash and gives you the reason to wake up every day. No commitments no names for the feel, no promises but you still feel like giving up the world for them, Getting up in the morning checking lots of different applications for the same profile takes you out the misery of the chaos and the loneliness.
Sitting in a coffee shop She was losing her mind over her loneliness . Asking the reason of wandering alone on empty streets . She asked herself the time she’ll finally be free in somebody’s arms swiftly she heard him sigh . Eyeing his face .they were looking at each other’s eyes , that ten second Gawk gave them – a thinking for night long and a poison for life long. those two cups of coffee, that two table, those two hearts, and one feel gave them dreams for nights and hope for days.

A smile of her gave him the essence of his days checking out her photographs, her eyes that shined bright in the light got his heart pounded little faster than it used to be. Reading out her comments and synergy from the guys made him feel little skeptical the feel that he never had.

She started accepting that the love and fate walked in from the same door, those long nights and longer chats attached the pieces of her shattered heart in past that she don’t even retrieve. It wasn’t like, that he was most important person in the world its just she didn’t care if he wasn’t, he became important to her in her own tiny world

The fact is it’s never easy, everything’s hard ,moving on is hard, falling is harder getting damaged is more, everybody’s gonna hurt you if you fall you just have to find out who’s gonna pick you when you fall and who’ll never let you down

those two cups of coffee, that two table, those two hearts, and one feel gave them dreams for nights and hope for days.

love is easy, falling in love is easier, crush is the easiest

broken smiled girl

She’s a girl who drove long eon with her feel-wounded heart

Everything she ever thought was right started to tear her apart

She’s a girl use to cry on Monday morning

Even spend her nights waiting for something

She’s a girl who needed to be hold needed to cry

She’s a girl staring at a picture till her tears go dry

Trying to live her way on I wanted her to burl

She got none else to say on she’s a broken smiled girl

She’s a girl who look in the mirror asks herself

Where’s your god when she’s screaming for help

She is a girl with million happy memories behind

But now burnt in flame of past ashes she can find

She’s a girl finding meaning of her existence

She’s a girl trying hoping looking for her senses

Got dazed by thoughts her mind goes whirl

Immense of fights she fought she’s a broken smiled girl

she’s a girl blubs on her pillow in the dark

she’s a girl with fragile heart with a scar on the mark

she’s a girl believed that some thing will last forever

like love written on the stars or firmly on the feather

she’s a girl lying top of her car looking to the moon

she’s stifling like on a height her she goes swirl

sitting in the corner hating the light she’s a broken smiled girl

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Hold you like a fay

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M not apart , from your heart

Yeah told ya from the start

M not away,  from your way

We together that time isn’t far

 

Im out,  from the doubt

You the one m thinking about

All I wanna see,  is you n me

Just lost in the the love you brought

 

Now I need no complication

Can see those variations

All I wanna say

 is I ll hold you like a fay

Hold you like a fay

 

All I wanna do,  all I want is you

I don’t care where we go

Forget  that fear, I m n always be hear

I know you too feel so

 

I got the sign, is to make u mine

Yeah u make me feel so fine

Just neva leave me, don’t tryna decive me

You are my sunshine

 

Your love running through my vain

You are nayr to my rain

All I wanna say

Is I ll hold you like a fay

I ll hold you like a fay 

 

do you think, i cant catch a thing

seeing u i cant take a blink

do you know, so high you make me go

you know my heart beats with yours it got a link

 

im out of mind, you u the one.. i got the sign 

and it keeps on keeps on trying 

cant spend a day, wanchya to stay

thinkin leting u go makes me lil crying 

 

now i dont know cant thing what i have to do 

crazy for you coz i neva met a girl like you 

all i wanna say

Is I ll hold you like a fay

I ll hold you like a fay